| // Come See. |
[30 Mar 2005 -- 11:12pm] |
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So spring break was relaxing. Though it wasn't really a "break" for me considering I'm not taking classes this quarter. I'm burnt out on school and will be going back next fall. So I sleep in when I can, work out 3 times a week, go out to lunch with people, work, stay out really late, and download lots of music. Most times it's completely unfulfilling. I'm thinking about calling over to American Eagle and seeing if I can get hired on again. If not that then I'm going to have to find something to do with my time. I might start studying viola again. I should start taking lessons again and I've said I was going to now for far too long. Anyway I hope everyone had a nice Spring Break and a good Easter. I have some pictures to share! ( Easter and Things )
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| // Hi. |
[12 Mar 2005 -- 11:07pm] |
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I know I never update. But nothing much is going on. Working a lot for the Logan's. I stayed with the kids for a week while their parents were in Mexico. It was loads of fun. And I got a tattoo today. I'll be taking pictures here probably and I'll post em. Hope everyone is doing well.
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| // Quote. |
[17 Feb 2005 -- 02:44pm] |
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"We need the books that affect us like a disaster, that grieve us deeply, like the death of someone we loved more than ourselves, like being banished into forests far from everyone, like a suicide. A book must be the axe for the frozen sea inside us."
-- Franz Kafka
( Blah. )
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| // She's Right. |
[25 Jan 2005 -- 11:48pm] |
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My friend ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) annieinprogress posted this a few days ago and she's given me permission to post it in my journal. It's just so fitting. I thanked her for putting to words what I've been wanting to scream for weeks now. Unfortunately he doesn't pick up the phone. oh, and fuck all irresponsible pricks, all of them. i swear to god, fucking grow up and stop flaking out, i'm sick of broken promises and "time off" bullshit. sorry but you can't just take a little "vacation" every time you don't want to deal with something. doesn't work like that, and if it did, i'd be on MY little breaktime a long fucking time ago. grow some balls, honestly. I'm sad tonight. If cutting me completely off is his way of breaking things off than this'll be a first.
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| // Title Lacking. |
[16 Jan 2005 -- 09:39pm] |
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I want to kiss someone, no I want to be kissed.
I don't want to wait anymore.
I need you to come over no matter the time, the weather, the posistion of the sun, or the health of my/your relatives.
I want all bullshit to be put aside so I end up in a room I've visited but never seen until now when I'm in your arms and your heart and your thoughts.
**This is why I don't update. I write and then feel like I just vomited nonsense onto my keyboard and I sigh because I should be more creative than this.
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| // Time For Bed. |
[11 Jan 2005 -- 12:21am] |
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I just spent a really, really, really, really, really long time reading this. I don't really know why I started but after I read the post I felt the need to read all the comments. Interesting.
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| // You're My Blessing, He's My Curse. |
[07 Jan 2005 -- 09:20pm] |
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( Tom Chambers )
They deceive you.
There was a wall you had to find.
The echoes in your mind.
You surrender.
These are the lessons that you learn.
Nobody hears, no one's concerned.
One day it's clear and then you burn.
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| // I Have Strep Throat. |
[02 Jan 2005 -- 11:28am] |
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I don't know if I've ever posted these in LJ before.
I don't know if I'll stick to them either.
It's just a nice think to think about what I need to do.
( New Years Resolutions )
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| // Foolish. |
[22 Dec 2004 -- 07:19pm] |
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Look What You've Done --Jet |
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The Christmas Spirit is not here tonight.
I'm lonely and bored and stuck inside cause of the snow.
Remember the times when lots of snow was cool?
That was before I could drive.
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| // Freewriting. |
[11 Dec 2004 -- 02:56am] |
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Jenny You're Barely Alive --Rilo Kiley |
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 affection that comes from a maternal instinct inside of me love like in that song where red flares burned and so did the end of your cigarette when you said you knew this was oh so right burning like my ears when i sit and think about how you could care less and how i will wait until something changes i could say i have enough confidence like Prince Charming said after i had just woken up from dreaming about your sneaky little phone call but in that dream i had the strength to call you out and in reality i let you smother my chances and then my sense of self 
nothing left to do but give up tonight lost this battle and you're not here for the eighth night in a row i've had more coffee, cigarettes, and tv than i can stand and i almost called again but cried instead and then became so cold after i released the burning of all my shame and regret and here i am a scared little shell of broken pieces like the broken promises you've never kept and it's still the same and the waiting continues tomorrow as the game is played again
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| // Peace On Earth. |
[02 Dec 2004 -- 11:43pm] |
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Peace On Earth/Little Drummer Boy --Bing Crosby& David Bowie |
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My advice to everyone, everywhere is lighten up. Or as the band Travis would say "Peace The Fuck Out". It's a wonderful song. And no this isn't coming from anywhere in particular and isn't about any single person or situation... Just a little advice to you all and to myself.
I love Christmas music and I've been downloading lots of it. I've also been finding out about some new cool artists like Carina Round and David Berkeley. Never heard of either of them till tonight but I'm already quite a fan.
Also I think it's funny how everything turns out. Something I've yearned for these past couple months has been given back to me and my first thought would be, "Everything should be fine now." It's different not necessarily better. But I realize that's life, and that's beautiful. This is the kind of crazy dialogue I can only have with a select few people. But when I do it's as if I understand it all.
I've been sick today. Chinese food didn't agree with me. I didn't get to go into work today. I was trying to be a trooper and stick it out so I could see the kids but it wasn't happening. I called Karen and she said it was fine and that if I needed anything to call her. That's love. That's amazing that their whole family cares so much for someone they've just come to know. I love how relationships in my life form so easily and comfortably. I miss them already.
Okay I will end my mindless rambling with one last thing. If you don't have an account on OKCupid you're missing out. It's like Myspace and Friendster but with a sense of humor. Go now and add me. There's even a fun quiz you get to take to begin with that'll tell you what type of relationship personality you have. Same name as here on LJ. OkCupid.com
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| // Happy Thanksgiving! |
[25 Nov 2004 -- 04:15pm] |
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We had a little get together. Just my mom, Kim, Todd, Joanna, Maya, and myself.
( Pictures )
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| // O-H! I-O! |
[20 Nov 2004 -- 06:43pm] |
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Run --Snow Patrol |
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What a waste of gas.
Enjoy the drive home Michigan fans.
GO BUCKS!
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| // It's All Okay. |
[07 Nov 2004 -- 10:25pm] |
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So if everything in my life is going to shit at least my job is wonderful. Bless the Logan family. Caroline, the oldest Logan child, did my hair the other night. 
Hot, huh? It's like I have the sisters I've always wanted. And Danny is so awesome, too. And Mr and Mrs Logan are so cool as well.
And, um wow, did anyone see Extreme Makeover: Home Edition tonight with the Vardon family? Goodness. I don't think I've ever cried so much watching a tv show.
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| // It's Going... |
[30 Oct 2004 -- 02:14am] |
Here are some lyrics that I want to post for no other reason than they've helped me some as of late.
Not For All The Love In The World --The Thrills
You show your age,
When you drown your rage.
But I see past those laughter lines,
So baby, lets split tonight,
I got a tank full of gas till light.
Yeah we can drive for miles and miles
But you just said,
"Not for all the love in the world."
"Not for all the love in the world."
Annie Waits --Ben Folds
And so
Annie waits, Annie waits, Annie waits
For a call
From a friend.
The same,
It's the same
Was it always the same?
Annie waits for the last time.
The clock never stops, never stops, never waits.
She's growing old,
It's getting late.
And so he forgot, he forgot
Maybe not.
Maybe he's been seriously hurt
Would that be worse?
Annie waits for the last time,
Just the same as the last time.
Annie says "You see this is why I'd rather be alone."
Everything I've Got In My Pocket --Minnie Driver
(Yes, Minnie Driver. And yes, I love this song for some reason!)
Baby I know that all your pain will pass.
I know you're sad,
But it won't last.
I'm betting you everything
I've got in my pocket.
When you're staring out into the sky
See what you have and don't ask why.
Things can be different but perfect.
PS: Every member in the Logan family has been my saving grace. I love them dearly and I have the best job in the world.
PPS: ( My LJ Trick Or Treat )
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| // Great. |
[20 Oct 2004 -- 11:40pm] |
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Okay so I don't know if anyone reads this anymore cause only a few people saw my last post. But maybe that's for the better cause this is going to be a joke of a post. But I'm fed up. I shouldn't try at relationships anymore. Maybe I'm not meant for them. Cause I always get thrown to the curb. I'm not okay but yes I'll be okay eventually. I just hate being dumped. Seriously, it's starting to get old. PS -- I hate how your face burns and stings after you cry and wipe away your tears. Ouch.
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| // I'm Not Dead! |
[19 Oct 2004 -- 12:37am] |
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I finally have the urge to post! And I have fun little picture update for you! ( Read more... )
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| // Car Accident. |
[22 Sep 2004 -- 01:16am] |
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So, um, yeah...
I got in a car accident today.
It was mostly my fault.
I failed to yeild; my bad.
She broke a traffic law.
Yet only one of us got a ticket.
Lucky me.
And my poor Jetta is smashed.
Thankfully neither parties were hurt.
I just sat around on the side of the road for 3 hours.
Effing police and tow took forever.
But things turned out better for me today.
Yes, I believe things are looking up.
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| // Too Much Booty In The Pants. |
[13 Sep 2004 -- 05:14pm] |
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panzershreck86 (5:12:04 PM): why hello there, booty jack & coke girl.
EHme cool (5:12:29 PM): hello hot israeli friend o' mine.
Random Picture Dealing With Subject Above:
( Mildly Offensive If You're Uptight ) 'Nuff said.
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| // Hey Playa. |
[12 Sep 2004 -- 08:24pm] |
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I'm so stuffed! I went to Mongolian tonight and ate so much! Yum. I never update anymore but I feel like it's because nothing interesting happens to me. I can't wait until school starts up and I can start making new friends. I saw Garden State the other night and it was amazing. Everyone should go see it. I just read a friend's post and he reminded me how much I miss walking around holding someone's hand. This update was crap. Sorry I'm boring. Call me. Seriously. Do it. 614-425-0440.
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| // Back. |
[07 Sep 2004 -- 11:47am] |
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Got back from vacation a couple days ago and have just now had the chance to update on good old LJ.
I screwed up my knee when we were tubing and I don't know if this is something that's ever going to heal completely.
I feel like I only have a few friends at this point in my life. It seems like I only ever see Jess and Devin because they call me and nobody else does. Oh well. I'm lonely.
I'm starting my new job today. Hopefully the kids will warm up to me quickly and there won't be major problems. Julia had a wonderful time with them so I've heard so I'm pretty sure things will work out just fine.
My SN and email has changed. I updated about that a long ass time ago but nobody commented or anything so I don't know if anyone saw it. If you want to know the new ones just ask.
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| // Getting Ready. |
[12 Aug 2004 -- 02:48pm] |
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I have a big day today. Going to meet with Julia and her former employer (the lady she nannies for) in a few hours. Hopefully I can be Julia's replacement. Julia has loved it there and says it's easy and good money. Plus I love kids. Then I'm going over to Jess's new apartment. I'll be the first person to see it unless her sister and Timothy have driven down already. But yeah I'm bringing over all these tops and accessories cause Jess wants something cute to wear with her new destroyed jeans. We'll be all girly and put together outfits! Good thing we wear all the same sizes. A big group of us are going to Long Street tonight. Hopefully that guy emails me back soon about the free passes but if not it's free for us girls and half price for the guys before 11. It's gonna be a blast like last time I'm sure. :D Oh and I've been getting my Britney on these past few days. "Early Mornin'" is one of my songs right now!
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| // My Trip To WV. |
[09 Aug 2004 -- 12:22pm] |
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Hung out with both Jess's and Devin's family. Bonded with both their sisters. Went to see the biggest tree east of the Mississippi. Drank real spring water. Went galavanting about in the river behind Devin's house. Ate way too much food. Went to get my ear pierced (at the top). Went to a bar called Mulligans and drank all night even though I'm underage. Helped Devin make furniture for their new apartment. Bonded with their two dogs even more. Had a blast!! ( Piercing )
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| // ADD IT! |
[02 Aug 2004 -- 06:55pm] |
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New AIM sn.
"tight xx jeans"
ADD IT! I just took everyone off my buddy list that I haven't talked to within the past few months. I hardly have anybody left. TALK TO ME.
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